Savannah Guthrie is more than 15 years removed from her divorce, but it seems like the split still weighs on her. In an interview on Tuesday with Monica Lewinsky, the Today correspondent said that the end of her marriage was “horrible and sad and it broke my heart and it took me years to recover.

While discussing her book Mostly What God Does: Reflections on Seeking and Finding His Love Everywhere during an episode released July 1, Guthrie touched upon the difficulty she had recovering from her divorce from her first husband, journalist Mark Orchard.